happy mother’s day to me, to you, to us
happy mother’s day to me! and to all of us. soon i will get dressed ( i just had a lovely and leisurely shower, i even shaved!) and go to my mama’s house, where my sister is, and my niece…oh yeah, and my dad and my husband, and i will relax a bit, then cook the big juicy steaks that my sis bought. i love to cook, and my family trusts only me with that task when it involves any sort of red meat! i am drooling just thinking about it. i also plan to go over to whole foods and get a chair massage at some point, it would be rad if i could talk my sis into going with me.
being a mama is the most fulfilling and frightening and empowering and humbling thing i have ever tried to do. my son is the epicenter of my world and as a result my epicenter changes and grows every day. i love this life so much that every hardship is worth it when i look at his face.
whoa! wednesday?!?
tired, good day, really. vincent and i had much fun cooking, cleaning, and relaxing. i went to meet with my private pay client (who stood me up sunday) only to be stood up again. headed to work to see one of my kids in sort of a crisis…it was worth it. this kid is in my heart. he is struggling with some shit that i feel he needed some extra support to deal with, and i hope he makes the right decision. we have a family session tomorrow night.
had some computer problems, seem to be fixed.
i will have the luxury to update tomorrow morning when i am not brain dead, because josh will be here to play with il douce.
good night.
this is me
here is my space, my real space, where i will write from my heart and mind about my daily life as a mother, which has become an inextricable facet of my identity, and one i am proud to embrace. being a mother has galvanized me and i need a place to process my thoughts and feelings, from the mundane to the profound. this will be that place. my life is caring for my self, my family, my home. my work life is caring for others, my clients who at this time are adolescent drug users. my passions are almost all connected to something listed here. i am trying to incorporate more self care, because honestly, i went back and edited that sentence up there when i realized i had actually written “home” before “self”. i love my family and my home and probably even my career more than i love my actual self, and that is the real underlying hope of this blog; that i might uncover why i have a hard time treating myself as well as i treat others.
that, and to keep track of my life. my pictures of my boy, recipes, lists, epiphanies, rants, ya know, all of that.
